What air supply song am I?

It's funny that my 100th post would be both a blog contest entry and an open letter to someone very special. =) GenSan News Online Mag has it that Air Supply will be having a concert at General Santos City this October 2, an event sponsored by Dreamwork Ventures, the concert producer, and Grab a Crab Restaurant.

So, while digging up my thoughts on the whole lot of Air Supply music that I grew up with, I couldn't really think of any song that fits me well... I dismissed the idea of joining the contest. Until after I went home from last night's videoke session, I was regretful that I didn't have the chance to sing Come What May. And then it struck me: that's it! Come What May is MY AIR SUPPLY SONG! That started everything, I took out my pen and notebook and started to scribble why I chose Come What May.

And the most unexpected thing happened...

When he looks at me
I know that boy sees things nobody else can see
All of the secret fears inside and all the craziness I hide
He looks into my soul and reads me like nobody can
And he doesn't judge the girl, he just takes me as I am...

Dear Cali,

I know it's weird writing to you in my blog post. But I can't stop myself from thinking of you. As I write the lyrics to the song, and hum its melody, all I could think of is you. Maybe because those words were perfectly written ahead just for the two of us. You've accepted me for me, maybe because you cared to look beyond my haircut and clothes, and knew the real me. And I've never heard you complain of how I get so busy with work and school, you simply understood, patiently waited, and for that, I am forever grateful.

Come what may he believes
And that faith is something I'd never known before
Come what may he loves me
And that love has helped me open a door
Making me love myself a little more...

Happy 9th monthsary! I never thought we'd stay together this long. You know how afraid I was to take the risk. We're almost always away from each other and I was so scared to venture in a long distance relationship. But you assured me and you have remained faithful until now. I've been a better person because of you. You came into my life at the right time. I thought I was already complete, I didn't know my life would be much much happier and even more wonderful with you. And yes, I'll quit driving like a psycho, I'm sorry if I ever made you worry about me, I deeply apologize. I'll never give up no matter how much life closes up on me, 'cause I know that you would always be there waiting for me, and I want to be there for you, too...

When I turn away
He knows those are the times
There's nothing he can say
Nothing that anyone can do
And so he lets me live it through
And when I'm in my darkest hour of uncertainty
He just simply lets me be
And goes right on loving me

Our relationship might be far from being perfect, we had our share our fights and petty quarrels, but you never left my side nor deprived me of the space that I needed. You simply know what to do, and this suits me so well. You have never loved me less despite my tantrums and mood swings. You never pry, you never insist, instead, you just silently sit beside me and wait until i calm down, maybe 'cause you know that I'd be longing for your loving arms at the end of my bouts.

And when it seem my dreams
Have all slipped through my fingers
When they just can't be found
I turn around and there they are
Shining in his eyes

You're simply the best gift that I have ever received. I don't know how you do it, but I never feel the weight of any burden whenever you're around. I told you this before, but let me remind you now: You're my best medicine, and you're the one who keeps me going. I LOVE YOU!

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I may have an adulterated version of the song, but it really spells out how I feel for the one I love. I don't know how I ended up writing a love letter in relation to that song but I felt good and satisfied after doing so. Yes, I've had second thoughts on posting this entry but I know that I couldn't have made it any better.

The Air Supply in GenSan Concert is a major production of Dreamwork Ventures Inc.’s Platinum Concert Series 2009, in cooperation with the City Government of GenSan, the GenSan City Chamber of Commerce and Industry Inc., ABS-CBN. Other partners are Grab A Crab Restaurant, MISO Hardware, San Miguel Corporation, Coca Cola Bottlers Inc., East Asia Royale Hotel, Coffee Dream, Giacominos, NY Fries and Dips, Giacominos, Gaisano Mall of GenSan and Gregoria Printing Press.

For more details about this blog contest, please visit the following:

• GenSan News Online Mag
  
• Grab A Crab Restaurant
• Air Supply Concert in GenSan
• What Air Supply Song Are You? Blog Contest

Survivor

I survived two days with no internet. I knew I wouldn't die of it, but the thought of not being connected in cyberworld almost killed me. No social (not)working, instant messaging, and emails for two days, my hands were itching! I knew I wouldn't die of it, but it made me feel so deprived! I am an internet addict, that I know and I admit, and thinking of a two-day vacation from surfing almost made me feel like I'd be thrown in a jungle.

Okay, so the two-day vacation is not really a vacation, and neither a jungle. It's a two-day assignment in another office. I've accepted a part-time job which requires me to be in their office for two days a week. Their office is nice but since this is a job that requires my serious side, I would have to let go of internet surfing while I do my work. Before my first day, I had doubts whether I'd be able to handle the self-inflicted pressure that I would surely create in my dire need to go online. But, its worth a try.

And okay, so I wasn't entirely "disconnected" from cyberworld, I cheated.

First day. I broke my rule. I spent about ten to fifteen minutes online to search some information about Quickbooks, well, it's a work-related search so I felt vindicated. But I did sneak into my email account for a while, and since there were no important messages, I went back to my work station.

Second day. I opened my email account again. Why can't I just restrain myself? Well, I thought that it wouldn't hurt to open my email. Just one email account, and it would give me peace of mind. There was one VIP mail, I read it but didn't reply. I guess that two-minute surfing is enough. I guess I'll just use my instant messaging alternative: Uzzap, thank you Smart for this free service!

I had to sacrifice karma loss in Plurk and was not updated with the currents of what's happening with my OL and RL friends. Well, losing karma won't kill me. If I ever get bankrupt in Mafia Wars, it would be okay, cyber-millions aren't worth a single centavo in real life, anyway. I am just happy that within the seven-day activity (with four days of zero to very minimal internet connection), my google adsense is moving, thank you!

Also, I was able to attend to Software Freedom Day 2009 last Saturday. And though I didn't finish the whole activity because of my classes, I was happy to have attended. It was a wonderful event! And I've heard that George Tujan's talk was a blast. Too bad I missed it! But anyway, the event introduced me to Kevin Paquet and Faust Principe, two promising bloggers, and I have a well-founded belief that these two are internet buffs, like me. I don't know if these two would survive an internet-less day. Wanna bet?

Is happiness catching?

No, I don't want to put up a happy face to conceal how hurt I am. I am not good in feigning happiness, anyway.

The following are quotes from "Is Happiness Catching?" article by Clive Thompson.

Behaviors can be contagious. Groups of people would become obese together, while other groupings would remain slender or even lose weight. You may not know him personally, but your friend’s husband’s co-worker can make you fat. And your sister’s friend’s boyfriend can make you thin. ...happiness doesn’t come only from having deep, heart-to-heart talks. It also comes from having daily exposure to many small moments of contagious happiness.


Drinking spread socially, as did happiness and even loneliness. Happiness is more contagious than unhappiness.

Christakis and Fowler’s strangest finding is the idea that a behavior can skip links — spreading to a friend of a friend without affecting the person who connects them. (Now I know why Rey was somehow inspired to lose weight when he was introduced with Cal.)

“If someone tells you that you can influence 1,000 people,” Fowler said, “it changes your way of seeing the world.”

The concluding statement hit me, and it hit me hard. Before I stumbled upon the article excerpted above, I was bitter, jealous, insecure, and very unhappy because of the mere fact that the boyfriend logged out of IM in the middle of our conversation, and without notice. I hated that! So, in respite, I wanted to post a blog about how pissed I am. Well, I know that this blog does not have much readers, but I just want to write. It makes me feel like I'm sharing my grief to the whole world.

That was before I read the article.

After finishing the first paragraph of this blog entry, I wasn't quite sure how I'd go on. I was angry, but I don't think that it's that big of an issue to ever make a full-blown article of how angry I was to be left in IM. I know that my anger would eventually go away, although I swear I wasn't thinking like this at the height of my angst.

But then, well, after reading the 10-page article, I resolved to shut up. No, I don't want to spread bitterness... Not to my readers (if there are any?). I don't have any intention to edit the first paragraph, though. Just leave it as it is. It's just a reminder that I am only human, I have those times where I get pissed, and my huffy character gets doubled when it's that time of the month. Forgive me... I am not entirely unhappy. That person who made me want to cry earlier is also the very person who makes me so happy... Now, I want to cry tears of joy! Hahaha! So, this is life... (--,)

You're not Peter Pan

To the guy who thinks he's Peter Pan: GROW UP!

What do you want?
What do you want to become?
What do you NOT want to become?
How will you get it?
How much are you willing to risk to get it?
What makes you happy?
What makes you sad?
What are the annoying things that you can live with?
What are the annoying things that you can't live with?

Imagine your life ten years from now, twenty years, fifty.....
What would your future be?

Sooner or later, you will have to resolve all those unresolved issues. Don't just shrug them away, or DENY that you have an issue to resolve.

Be a MAN.

Sometime, somewhere, some people are going to get hurt, and that would definitely include YOU.

In memory of Tonton

It was in the neighborhood grapevine that somebody was killed near our place in Talomo. I later on learned that the person who was killed was one of our workers, poor guy. His wake was only for two days, I doubt if my folks were able to visit him before the burial.

Tonton was one of the most promising among his "batch" of construction workers who did our house. After being hired as a construction worker, he was rehired by my parents to do a lot of other heavy chores around the house like tending the lawn, paint jobs, and other stuff. He's just determined to earn a living and would accept any other job to support himself. And he is a very good worker.

Snob as I am, I was not Tonton's friend. I would only talk to him if mom would ask me to, like when it's time for snacks and I would call Tonton to have a break from his work. But I was saddened to hear the news that he was murdered (yes, it was murder). Tonton was a good man, and whoever killed him should answer for such a cruel crime.

Tonton may no longer read this, or may no longer hear me say this, but, I would like to say, THANK YOU. And, as sort of a pledge, when I'm already a lawyer, I promise to handle your case, if your relatives would ask me to. And I'm going to make sure that justice will be served.